Sorry for any lack of replies and such. My computer had to go into the shop over the weekend. I'm hoping to get it back sooner than later. Meantime I'll try to reply to comments, journals, and whatnot. But not everything. Sorry about this folks. Hope to be back online soon.

Chwen

Wanted to update my journal. My last one was made at a moment where I was not in a pleasant mood. I'm feeling better now. Unemployed but feeling better. Job hunt is going well, got some leads here and there. Just hope I can get a job soon before I end up cleaning out my checking account. Unemployment isn't helping me out at all. Daying I need to make X amount of hours to get money. Which is bullshit imo since they told me when I came in I might be making some X amount once the papers clear. And people wonder why common folks turn to guns and crime.

Anywho, better explain the title of my journal. My dad recently retired and finally broke down and purchased a flat screen HD TV. It looks amazing, the sheer size of it alone makes me giddy. The HD quality is mind blowing, so crystal clear than normal channels. But there is a catch 21 on this. With HD, you can see everything.... I mean everything! I turned on a movie channel that had Bedtime Stories with Adam Sandler. With the HD quality, I could count the facial hairs, scars, bumps, and wrinkles on his face. O_O People you think that look so beautiful turn out a whole lot different in HD.

I'm afraid to see what women like Jessica Biel look in HD. Do I dare see the truth?! I have seen the future and its both crystal clear and pretty frightening.

Chwen

This is a major rant. I need to get this off my chest. Lots of "bad words" so close your eyes and ears, kiddies.

I got home early from work today and not for a good reason. My new manager told me that I violated store policies without knowing it. They caught it on store camera. He said until further notice, I'm on indefinite suspension. Which can mean two things, a) I'm fired or, b) I'm temporary out of work until such time.

I can't be out of work. I've got bills to pay and the job market sucks as it is. I've gotta call my union and see what I can do about this. If that falls out, I'll have to contact unemployment but I dunno if they will help me since I work part-time (the only thing I could get when I got hired on). The worst part of this is that there are other workers at my job who are terrible and yet they get away with shit. I've got a co-worker who "suffers" from ADHD. He slacks off at any chance he gets and no one raises a finger to him. I get overworked from school and other things in life, make a few mistakes, and get slapped down.

I feel like shit. I wanna cry or beat the shit out of someone. I fucking hate my new boss and I hate the fact that this is days before my birthday.

I'm so sick of apologizing to people when they are at fault and not me. I'm sick of being the victim of fucking faggots who got lucky in life while others work their asses off and get nothing. I'm fucking sick of having to hear the excuse "That's life". When people suffer ten times worse than me, do they say "oh well, that's life"?

Every time I deal with bad shit like this... I wanna put a bullet into the brains of every fucking parent who wouldn't get off their ass to properly raise their kids or give them proper love and attention. I wanna set on fire every home of greedy, too well-off people who think they are better than us with them trapped inside.

I wanna taste blood.

My birthday is coming up in October on the 13th. How old am I? Old enough to know that I should have picked my college courses more carefully. So far, I am trying to stay above water in my college classes. Especially my Geometry course. Flunked the last exam and doing my best not to tank the next one coming up soon. I'm slowly learning this stuff but retaining it is another story. I did have a quiz and a test for Biology and did much better than expected. I'm hoping the rest of this semester goes more smoothly.

Been so busy, I barely noticed Monsters vs Aliens came out on DVD and Blu Ray. Thinking of getting that for my birthday. Would like to get the Blu Ray version but need a flat screen and Blu Ray player for that. Perhaps I'll get those for X-mas.

It's getting colder where I'm at. So I need to look into a humidifier for my bedroom. My last one died out on me. I use it to keep the air moist so not to get a sore throat. Had a small one during my head cold previously but it didn't last long.

Would like to get some more commissions done as well as stories written. But with work and school taking up all my time, its not easy to sit down and write. Money is pretty tight with the lack of good hours. So I hope that things will pick up soon.

At midnight tonight, we enter October and soon all the creatures of the night will start to come out. I like this holiday, maybe during some slow points between tests and work my creative juices will begin to flow again.

Chwen

But with my work load, I think its debatable.

So what's new with me? I've been back to college for two weeks now (week three starts this Monday) while balancing my part-time job. The hardest subject for me this semester is Geometry. I hope to pass this class with a decent grade but I'm pretty sure a lot of my fellow classmates feel the same way.

The last few movies I've seen were GI Joe and Inglorious Basterds. The former was ok, but you are not expecting much from a film based off a cartoon based off a toyline. Basterds was very good, more of a drama than an action flick but its vintage QT. I want to see District 9 before it leaves theaters. That looks awesome.

Project wise, I am still working on the Jekyll & Hyde story. It's gonna take some time to get it done with work and school keeping me busy. I will try to get it done as soon as possible, but I can't say when it will be done. I'll keep you folks posted on that. I do have a commission or two in the works. Those should appear eventually.

So, how was your summer vacation?

Chwen